Thursday, August 11, 2011

The Meaning Of Life

…THE MEANING OF LIFE…

I am in my…pushing 40 right now…next month I embrace a whole new decade.

I think around this time in someones my life The Meaning Of Life is gonna come up…

Last week I had to really look at my life…
…Where I’ve come from...
…Where I am now…
…What the FUCK fuck am I gonna do in the future…

Life isn’t easy, we deal with these
...up’s and down’s
…blows to our self esteem
…you reach a point where the road…has to many crosses and forks
…life in general sucks and you have the answers for other people but not one for yourself

Mean People
The Haters
The Judgers

Note…not the shit talk about your friends when they’re late or leave early…we say that shit to your face.

Last week...
I had an incident where I had been Judged by someone who believes themselves to be very religious, right in every way and that I am wrong in probably every avenue you/they could imagine.
…after thought and my stomach ultimately settling from the upset that was not physical but emotional I came to the clear and concise conclusion…

That person is wrong. 

…but they made me think and now I’ve chosen to stand my ground, finally. 

Last week...
I had another incident where I ASKED to be Judged. I had applied for a job I was made for.
I did what was asked of me and wrote a review. I was professional and not a swear word was uttered used.
I thought it was thorough .
…I was obviously wrong and perhaps as this person shopped around for a new employ someone out there had more experience than me…and that’s not hard to believe…
…all I have is this life I have lead as my experience.
I didn’t get it.
I am not going to say that person was wrong…
http://behindthebookscover.blogspot.com/2011/08/normal-0-0-1-702-4007-33-8-4920-11.html


The Meaning Of Life For…for me is simple.

The power of NOW.

The power to change that which isn’t working.
The power of NOW.
The power to be kind.
The power of NOW.
The power to forgive.
The power of NOW.
The power to love.
The power of NOW.
The power to accept my own happiness.


I sat down on my sofa with my Wasabi Dorito’s and cried and admitted I didn’t have the answers.

I may not know what I am doing but I AM doing it…everyday.
…and everyday I know I make a difference in somebody’s life…a positive one.
To let negative energy in destroys you from the inside out and I refuse it.

In conclusion…
…I am gonna be 40 and I can’t wait…
…because I have ALL the power I need to be ME.
The Un-Holy Trinity that makes Me, Myself and I…
...Kristin.





1 comment:

  1. For what it's worth, I love ya. And I don't say that lightly.

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